Worst. Mom. Ever!

I know that I am NOT the worst mom ever, but sometimes I feel that way. Brian gets VERY tired of me saying it, but there are times when I feel like it. When I don't get to see Adelle as often as I want to (because of school commitments), when I try to give her new food and she doesn't take it right away - I have her try it more than once, or when I take care of her all day and she is super fussy so when Brian gets home I sometimes leave the room (so I don't go insane). But today takes the cake.

Today sucked. Completely.

Adelle and I fell down the stairs. She fell out of my arms and ended up rolling, like a log, down a few stairs. She cried right away, doesn't have any bruises, her pupils were fine and she didn't have any trouble breathing. She had her helmet on and was walking around, squatting, standing, and talking like normal the rest of the day. I called the doctor right away, then called Brian. I have been crying since it happened! HOW did she come out of my arms?

Today is a day I feel like the worst mom ever. Ever!

We gave Adelle a bath tonight and looked at her body again, to make sure she didn't have any bruising. She doesn't and nothing seems tender or sore. I mean, I have moved her arms and legs and gently pressed my hand against her belly, abdomen and back.

:(

I understand that this has happened to other people, and that children fall off beds. I also understand that children fall and they are generally fine, you should just keep an eye on them. But nothing stops you from feeling the way you feel when it happens to you and your child.

PLEASE chime in if you've had something like this happen. I truly feel like I am alone in this, and, like the worst mom ever!!